A million Little Pieces pt. 4

Hi everybody, I finished A Million Little Pieces. Wow it was amazing, since my last post so much has happened I can't even comprehend it all. If you haven't read this book, READ IT NOW. The intensity is ridiculous. So since my last post, Lilly has become a huge part of the book, her and James continue to see eachother even though it is against the rules, and some of the workers were starting to get suspicious. Eventually they did figure out that they were having relations, and it was a major problem. They threatened to kick them out of therapy a few times. This is at a point where Lilly and James are falling head over heals for eachother, they are an outlet for eachother, similar in so many ways. Although James and Lilly both have horrible trust issues from their past with other relationships they are suprised with how they have fallen for eachother. So when they threaten to kick them out, Lilly looses it threatening to leave to go back to Chicago to be with her grandmother and say goodbye to her (she is sick and dying) and than kill herself, she leaves the clinic on her own, without James knowing. He finds out the news and starts freaking out. He is so scared, and has no idea where she could be, he finds two members who work at the rehab center who he has become close with, Hank and Lincoln. They leave the treatment center in a hurry, James panicking in the backseat. He is thinking about the comment Lilly made about killing herself if she couldn't be with him. They drive to the Minneapolis bus station, when James is there he finds a drug dealer, who is speaking of Lilly, James talks to him and find out where Lilly might be. They go there, it is a boarded-up old building, he walks inside, the rancid smell overtakes him, throw up, urine, making him want to vomit. He goes up the stairs, he smells the drugs, hears the sex, everything is around him, tempting him, testing him. He keeps going, yelling out for his Lilly, he gets to a hallway. He hears a man yelling commands at a girl, (innapropriate for the blog) ...and he steps inside the room, finding Lilly on her hands and knees, (innapropraite for the blog) his heart sank into his stomach, he can't believe what he is seeing. He holds back his tears, and picks Lilly up. Against her own will, she kicks and screams, trying to get him to let her down. He won't budge, he has to get her out of there. She was having sex with the man for crack, knowing that she has already smoked they take her back to clinic and get her into detox. It kills James to let go of her hand, but he can't go with her. He tells her not to worry and that she will be with him again soon, just hold on. OHH MYY GOOSSHH, it is so crazy. That is just a little preview, it only gets better. This book is by far the best book I have ever read. I am now going on to read, My Best Friend Leonard, by James Frey as well. It goes on with his story, and more in depth with his friendship with his friend Leonard. Ah I'm so excited! Keep ya posted.